what if i let go of capitalizing today?
or stop caring about punctuation
and just let my words flow from thought to keyboard to screen
what would happen if i stop caring about time
and how i never seem to have enough
or words and how they never come out right
what if i stop thinking about my expectations that i have for myself
and just live without pressures deadlines or internal criticism
how different would life be for me, if i stop caring?
would i wake up with regret, that I didn’t try hard enough?
Would I think that I settled for less?
Would I lose a sense of who I am? A sense of accomplishment?
It’s the battles that make you, I keep telling myself. But I get tired of fighting.
I wonder, is it easier to give up than to keep going?
It seems as though it’s easier for me to keep going…
And that’s kinda nice if I really think about it…
I’m not the fastest, or the smartest, or the best, but I keep going.