I have this problem. I feel often. I feel deeply. But I lack the self-awareness to see how I feel in the moment until it hits me hard.
Something I struggle with is being vulnerable. I have a front that makes it seem like I am.
Feedback is everything. It’s a motivator. It’s fulfilling.
It says, “Hey, you there!” Gives you a pat on the back and makes you feel like you’re doing a great job when honestly you feel like your work is a piece of shit!
Don’t you feel like your writing is a piece of shit sometimes? That no one reads it, therefore, no one cares.
“If a blog post was written but no one reads it does it even matter?”
Yeah! Because lurkers also read it! Just answering my own question.
But it makes me feel EXTRA AF when people comment on my blog on any form of media.When people tell me that they read my blog casually or people I haven’t talked to in a while say they enjoy a particular post. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING IT!
I really appreciate it seriously. Especially when you tell me what you like or don’t like about it. It makes me feel like it can only go uphill from here. Like this blank whatever blog will be better someday somehow.
I will never be perfect when it comes to writing but to have just a few people enjoy means a lot of me cause these blogs weren’t even really made for entertainment. It’s just for my release, my expression, but when I receive a compliment on here it means so much more because I try to be as honest as I can be on here.
Shout out to my friends who inspire me to write about most of these things. My discussions with you guys are an inspiration for this blog. Inspiration in my life! You guys keep shit interesting and I’m happy for that since it feel like I have a boring life but I’m thankful at the very least I don’t have boring thoughts.
If you like commenting, please do. I appreciate it immensely.
a.k.a. “Get over it Marianne. Why does it matter? Who cares? Stop talking about it. It’s useless and you’re wasting your time.”
Society gives psychology shade. You’re weak if you’re emotional. You’re judging if you’re too analytical. You’re an asshole either way. Having an illness is a weakness of the mind that should not be talked about. We all avoid confronting other people about their faults. We are unwilling to admit that we are part of the problem.
I have been told some of these things in real life. Some of these things are implied by society. Some things are explicitly said around the internet.
Here’s the thing. I am very respectful to other people’s opinion (regardless of where they are coming from). I go as far as to understand that judgement even if their argument has a weak basis (ie. the reluctance to be open to new ideas thus dismissing it as illogical without researching). When I see people are tired of a topic, I stop talking about it. Trust me, I know. But please do not make haste judgements about MBTI/Personality Types and Psychology because you are too lazy (or scared) to do the research to understand. Also, do not make haste judgements about me because I enjoy understanding others. I actually want to help. If you disagree, please tell me personally.
Lastly, if you took this article personally then you do not get my point. I am addressing criticism that I have been getting not only from my real life encounters, but through internet encounters. I’ve been criticized for being like this (meaning psycho-analytical and a overthinker) my whole life. Owning up to it by talking about MBTI for the last year has opened the door to subtle criticism from across the spectrum. I’m letting you know the reasons why. So let’s get right to it.