I have this problem. I feel often. I feel deeply. But I lack the self-awareness to see how I feel in the moment until it hits me hard.
I know why you’re here.
You’re here because I’m great at listening, right? I’m here for you, just when you need me.
… are those that show me you’re interested in what I care about.
… are times you are reminded of me.
… are ones that understand the struggles I go through.
… are the times that I helped you understand.
… are the instances you show me feedback on where I can improve.
… are the occasions you suggest things I might like.
… are the ones you notice I struggle to improve on.
… are the moments that show me I inspired you to change.
Most compliments I receive, I rarely expect. Some I don’t even acknowledge out of fear that it will turn people away. But I appreciate them truly. Thank you always.
Complaining. It’s the easiest form of release. Just note and criticize everything wrong with the world, your life and everyone around you.
“I am no longer afraid of getting old. Indeed I can’t believe I ever said anything so stupid. So childish. So offensive and arrogant.
But mainly, so very, very stupid. I desperately want to grow old.”
― Elizabeth Wein,
The infamous paradigm shift. At times, it takes them a life event for them to shift their mindset. And sometimes, it just takes a line from a book.
Getting back on track with writing is harder than I imagined. A few months ago, it was a lot easier for my thoughts to flow and for me to create content for this blog but after of a few months of sloth, it’s been difficult.
This reminds me of a mantra that I keep hearing in yoga. Effort before effortless. You need to put in hard work in order to reap the rewards of ease. Things have to suck a little bit before I can feel like writing isn’t a struggle.
The thing is I have to keep this up. Writing has been a great catharsis for me. It’s my favorite medium of expression and sharing thoughts with possible feedback has been very helpful for my mental state.
Quality is the reward for consistency.
Every experience no matter how bad it seems holds within it a blessing of some kind. The goal is to find it.
- Gautama Buddha