Failing all dem minimums but it just shows how burnt out I am.
This week isn’t the most productive one. Maybe it’s because I am trying to maintain an uphill momentum. That’s just how I am as a person. I want to be that overachiever who is constantly pushing myself to be better every day.
It feels disappointing when I’m not better every day. It feels worse when I’m not better over the course of a few days.
Because I’m not just an idealist and perfectionist. I’m an overachiever who gets discouraged by the slightest failure when it comes to my profession.
I don’t like failure. And my course is filled with them. It’s boring, it’s monotonous. I have very few moments where I’m astounded by its science. I’m usually faced with the problem that I’ve read this before and I don’t want to read it again.
The road up and the road down is one and the same.– Heraclitus